Friday, Apr 14, 2018
Gone to the Dogs
I am watching some friends dogs this week in Olon. One is a Border Collie and the other is a Maltese puppy. They are fun dogs and keep me entertained. The Border Collie loves to fetch ball on the beach. The Maltese pup loves to do anything she really shouldn’t be doing. At times I feel like I’m raising children again. 😉
It has been nice staying in Olon and having so much activity around me. For the most part it hasn’t been noisy or crazy which it can be known to do. The beach is as close as it is to my house in San Jose, and from the 3rd floor of my friends’ condo I get a different perspective of the ocean. I still go to the shore for the sunsets, which continue to be phenomenal.
The beach between San Jose and Olon had a lot of interesting activity this week. There were kids and adults getting pony rides, the local towns people showing up for a big fish catch, and men loading their boat into a truck using only physics and physique. I never know what I will see on these beach walks.
Fish Fry Tonight
Load It Up Men
I get up early. It is still dark outside when I wake up to begin my day. Sometimes my very first thought is why am I here? I feel alone. The feelings can feel heavy in the darkness of the early morning hours. I do know not to think or ponder anything until the sun comes up.
When the first light of day makes its way through my windows my spirit lifts. As brightness fills the room so my perspective of living here brightens too. When the full sun is shining its rays over the ocean and the white crested waves softly roar onto shore, what seemed lost to me in the earlier darkness is found.
Life is meant to be embraced. There are insights, wisdom, and connection to be had no matter where I am or what I am doing. I think fear can rob me of this presence of mind. Fear of what is happening, or fear of what isn’t happening. If I choose, there can always be something to be feared.
Comfort or Chaos Matters Not
How many of us have everything going pretty great and fear it will end? What does that do for your emotional well-being on a daily basis? Fear is not a respecter of chaos or comfort. It doesn’t bring anything to the present experience that is helpful. (Well ok, when seeing a lion charge after you and fear says run, then it is beneficial…and so far I have not seen any lions here.)
Allowing fear of an unknown future to come into my present moment is like living in the dark cellar beneath a beautiful home. I miss living in luxury and light for fear the roof might fall in. Let the fucker fall. I’m not going to live afraid of what isn’t happening. And that is what I say to the darkness at 4 am.